Mar 7, 2013

Loving through hate and hating through love

I remember all along when I was growing up how my parents would say that the music of our generation was trash. They would compare it to the music of their times and explain how the quality of music, lyrics and everything had deteriorated. I would argue with them saying that the music had only gotten better and that they were just getting old and less open to change.

While I made those arguments back then I also remember making a promise to myself of how I'd never let time get the better of me, how I'd never make such statements to my kids, and instead adapt to and value the new music and all the new kinds of things that might come around in my life. Here I am, only 24 and no kids, and I can already not seem to understand how much of the music that is created today, and enjoyed by the younger people of today, even qualifies as music. Don't even get me started on some of the lyrics.

But no, I'm not going down that road because the truth is that as much as I feel that way, I also feel that there are still some artists that make some beautiful music. Although now it seems like this post is getting into that generation comparison zone, that really was not my intention.

I spent a lot of time on facebook today, after a really long time. I feel so updated about some people's lives all of a sudden, people who I had completely forgotten about. The timeline feature on my profile really took me down memory lane (hence all that generation scribble). It got me thinking of how a lot has changed. There are so many people I was close to at some point in the past who I don't even talk to anymore. How did that happen? People I worked with, who were then such a crucial part of my life, that I have absolutely no news of anymore. Some other people I deliberately cut off because the situation called for it, and so many new additions. I cringed a little bit inside seeing some of the pictures and some of the people I associated myself with. What was I thinking? Certain pictures of certain people made me feel a pinch of regret on so many levels - from downright superficial to unimaginable depth.

This whole facebook awakening might sound really funny and stupid but I was amazed at how it reflected so strongly to me, who I was and who I am now. While on the macro level I could almost see so many things having changed like how the music between generations has changed, on the micro, more individual level, I was struck with nostalgia. I was made to realize how much I've changed as a person, how much I've grown up, how I've done a lot of things I said I'd never do, how I am regretting, very cheerfully however, certain things and how I'm so happy for so many things.  Despite everything I've said, done or promised myself, I love how I've opened myself to all the change that's come my way - in terms of people, places, work, situations, everything.

I'm so curious to see where life takes me and all of us from here.